nahdaan

thats finnish for 'see you'...

yup, CJ will be leaving for finland in a few days time; six to be exact. but they still have to be in manila so theyll be leaving davao on monday.
thats why we planned a surprise going-away party for CJ at miguel's crib.
we had alotta fun.
food overload indeed. the gluttons had a feast again.
we had some booze of course. but we werent wasted for it came in late and we only had a few bottles.
and add to that some singin. videoke till the break of dawn. no exaggeration. we left miguel's past six already.



guess ill just get used to having no CJ around. and no Lucky as well. theyve always been really good friends.
but im sure im gonna see them again soon.

nahdaan Suomessa pian.

quick pic: videoke

just cant get enough of it. though i know that the mic already had alot with my beating, screaming and shouting.
though we have our own videoke system at home, its just two-times much fun when youre out with your friends singing your hearts out.
but seriously, im no good at it, singing that is. because if i am, i wouldnt settle for the privacy of our house and of the videoke bars... i would join every amateur singing contest and conquer every stage and even araneta. lol
and thats what good friends are for, to listen to you. not just with your LAME heartbreak stories; but with your LAME singing as well.

kadayawan 09

last weekend was the culmination of kadayawan, our city's grand fiesta.
it was jampacked everywhere. if the malls and streets flooded with people, the famous torres street (a street lined with bars and restaurants) was an ocean of it.

but i actually didnt have any plans of going out that night for first: i dont have any finances; and second: i didnt receive any invites. so i just went to the gym with CJ and had coffee after. where else but at coffee cat. which was only a walk from the gym.
and there we met some old friends. had a great time and a lot of good laugh.

and guess who came in and sat next to our table???

somebody famous...
nah, its not barack.. c'mon.

somebody from showbiz...
nope, its not angelina..

local showbiz, i mean...
and its not kris.

not even boy.

okay, okay... its john prats and sheree...

yeah i know, been talkin to myself again. stop that! ok, ok!!!
godspeed...

THE LIST

“Gang, I fil bad.”

That was the text I received from CJ this afternoon. Of course I responded asking her why. And her next message suddenly made my heart jump and beat faster. Mixed emotions conquered me. Her text goes like, “Naa na ang list” (The list is already out.) I read it as if she was beside me uttering those very words with a flat tone. Suddenly, it dawned on me. But still I had a hint of hope in the side of my mind. I don’t want to lose it all and totally dwell in the negative.

But her confirmation of the bad news erased my hopes away. The list of the lucky twenty is finally out and only MM made it from our group. The sorrow I felt is now visible on my face. My heart is so heavy that my eyes overflowed. I took a shower to wash them away. I even asked God why – why I did not make it when I wanted it so badly.

When I was on my way to meet up with CJ to hear the news personally, I even thought that maybe CJ was just kidding and that she would just want to surprise me – a sign that I am still hoping. But then I thought that that wouldn’t be such a nice joke. And when I was a couple of steps away from them and I finally had a glimpse of CJ’s face, I realized that she wasn’t really joking after all.

Now, I don’t really understand what I am feeling. Guess I am back to having mixed emotions again. For sure I’m sad. Or maybe jealous for I am not picked; jealous that the others will be leaving soon; and jealous for they got the thing what I wanted so badly. Maybe I am also disappointed – disappointed at myself, disappointed at the list and for the system of selection – if there’s such!

Somewhat, I have already accepted the fact that I was not lucky enough to be included in the list. I keep on thinking that I should already accept it and that it is the right thing to do. That is why I tend to suppress the grief. I try to forget about it and just focus on the positive things. But somehow, anger and depression still linger. I keep on returning to those feelings. Guess I haven’t fully accepted it yet. Maybe forgetting and suppressing aren’t that helpful after all. Or maybe, it just takes some time for me to fully accept it. All I need is time.

Guess we’ll be waiting again. When will this end? If they just only knew how agonizing this feeling is. But at least there were people chosen and good enough that one of them is from our group, it gives us hope that maybe the next ones would already be us.

I know God has plans for us. I always thank God for everything happen in His perfect time; God never failed me on that and maybe now is just not the right time yet. I may not realize it now but I know that there will be a reason for this – why He hadn’t given it now. And now I pray that I can fully accept that I was not in that list. I know this time isn’t for me because God has bigger and better plans and it will come in the most perfect time – in His time.

predicting predictability

The other day, my friend asked me if she was predictable. I really don’t know what to say so I pondered about it.

Being predictable isn’t that bad after all. For a person to say that you’re predictable just means that that person really knows you a lot. He must have noticed the same reaction from you a couple of times before for him to conclude that that is really the way you react and for him to predict what your next action is.

There’s really nothing wrong with being predictable and same as with being unpredictable. And besides, you can change from being predictable to becoming the opposite any time you want. With people who know you a lot, you can spice it up by reacting differently and therefore you being unpredictable for them.

Mcdo Night Sessions

Mcdo Sessions are engagements done by a pair or a group of friends in any branch of Mcdonald’s fastfood chain. Engagements may include group studies, work-related tasks and/or engaging conversations which are usually over some food and/or drinks. It usually takes place as early as 8:00 pm until as late as 5:00 am.

Mcdonald’s is just the perfect place for such engagements because of its strategic location which makes it a convenient place for almost everyone. And the food which is undeniably scrumptious is always comforting even more if paired with a hot drink or a cold thirst quencher. The place is also well-lit perfect for all of those activities mentioned. Ventilation is good too but it may get a bit cold, so a jacket may come in handy. More often than not, they play songs which make the mood more relaxed. Though sometimes, due to the duration of the said engagements, the number of songs in their playlist may not be enough and as a result you tend to hear a song more than once. There are even times that you can already guess what the next song is.

The place is not really that significant in engagements like these. It can be done in any other place as long as it meets the same criteria mentioned above. But what’s most important is that these Mcdo Sessions are spent together with close companions. Conversations won’t be that long and engaging if it wouldn’t be with real friends while group studies and work-related tasks would be such a burden if you’re not with people who you have same interests with.

So, let the sessions begin…