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YUP, IT SURE DOES FEEL LIKE ONE.

JUST LIKE BEFORE, IT WAS CJ WHO DROPPED THE BOMB. BUT NOW, IT WOULD BE HER WHO WILL BE LEAVING. SHE WILL BE LEAVING FOR FINLAND SOON TOGETHER WITH LUCKY AND LR.

HONESTLY, I AM QUITE HAPPY FOR THEM. BUT OF COURSE, I CANNOT DENY THE FACT THAT I AM DISAPPOINTED. FOR THE SECOND TIME, STILL NO TEDPEN ON THE LIST.

I AM GLAD FOR CJ ALSO CONSIDERED MY FEELINGS. “BITTERSWEET”, SHE SAID. BUT I DONT REALLY LIKE TO DWELL ON THE NEGATIVE. I TOLD HER TO JUST BE HAPPY AND CELEBRATE FOR THEY HAVE THE RIGHT AND THEY TOTALLY DESERVE IT.

NOW WHAT? I DUNNO.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW MY PARTNER IN CRIME IS LEAVING. CJ HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE IN TIMES I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. CJ FILLS UP MY WEAKNESSES THE WAY I FILL UP HERS. WE WORK LIKE A WELL-OILED MACHINE.

I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA LOSE A LIMB. NAKS! WEVE ALWAYS MADE PLANS TOGETHER. AND TOGETHER WE ACCOMPLISH OR FAIL THEM. THROUGH GOOD AND BAD TIMES – CJ WAS THERE. WEVE ALWAYS SHARED JOY, CONVERSATIONS, LAUGHTER AND A LOT MORE. NEEDLESS TO SAY, WE SHARE THE SAME WAVE LENGTHS.

I GUESS I HAVE TO FACE THE UNCERTAINTIES ALONE. I HAVE TO BE STRONG AND STEADFAST. MAY GOD GRANT ME THE DIRECTION AND GUIDANCE I NEEDED. GODSPEED!